So, I wonder if the saying is a little backwards. Maybe it isn't "when one door closes another one opens." I'm thinking in my life today it is more of "when one door opens it isn't that bad when the other door closes." Oh hell, forget it. It is bad. I just lost a group of friends. I would like to think my blogging might replace that group of online friends but that door closed swiftly and this door is slowly edging open.
It is almost odd to me that I am so invested in a group of people whom I have never met in real life. I belonged to the group for at least 2 years and I've stuck it out through some knock down drag out fights. I've never once left the group. Other people would act as if the group had a revolving door. Shout their displeasure, be gone for two weeks and come back. I've always been annoyed at them for that. Take a stand and stick with it. That is why I have never left. I have never been that invested in any argument to know I couldn't resolve it and happily stay a member. I have now left though and in doing so I have also left behind many friends that I will miss. In the commotion of things I'm sure I lost a friend that I've known since before I even got pg with my 7 year old - she is the one friend I have met in real life. That's a lot of history. That's a lot of sadness. And for the record I am completely devestated.
You may wonder why I chose to let it all out here. That's because I'm a closet computer user. I prefer my outside friends not to know that I spend my hours at home playing online games, chatting at online parenting sights, blogging, and shopping(this is legitimate though and I'll save that for another blog). I don't even share all of my online hobbies with my husband. He doesn't know I've started this blog. He knows I am in an online group - however this morning I didn't tell him I left it. I don't discuss my online friends with him - even though he has had the occasional meeting when them playing online games as well. I just enjoy having this piece of my life that is all mine - that I don't share.
I have three children. Two boys - Jackson and Jared and one girl - Jordan. We lived in England when I began this blog but we have now returned to the US. I am a stay at home mom even with all three kids in school and I love it!